Reflecting on My Growth Throughout MSOD

As we near the end of this program it’s difficult for me to not look back and wish I’d have done more. Accomplished more. Grown more. Learned more. But then my wise self steps and and reminds me of how much I’ve grown over the last 2 years. Coming into this program, I was unable to address the events of my childhood, take responsibility for my own shortcomings or mistakes, and operate with a deeper level of empathy. Now I have a healthy level of self-talk and am constantly reflecting on how I can grow within specific situations. I have to remind myself that I am young and I have so many years ahead to hone my observation skills, business acumen and leadership capabilities. Thinking back on my depleting patterns - action-oriented, high standards, competitive, takes strong stands and defensive - I haven’t curbed them as much as I’d like, but I am much more aware of when I am indulging (oh hey, Bianca!). I think deeper exploration of these patterns and their origins will help keep them at bay a little more. I’d like to continue to be more aware of these patterns and my Inner Committee (especially after the program), so I’d like to find ways to think back to these concepts on a daily basis. Perhaps it would be helpful to paste my Inner Committee roster in my journal and practice the pause in a controlled environment by setting more time for daily meditation aside. Looking at my SLC just now, something almost identical to that was noted, so I clearly have room to grow and know this goal is important to me since it has persisted. One thing that is new for me is my desire to be more deeply connected to my physical SPINE. As a yoga teacher have a good body awareness, but in my daily life I find that I am not heeding the messages my body is sending. I am also not taking care of my physical body well right now, which has had a significant impact on my mental health. Moving forward, I’d like to prioritize my physical health immediately in order to make more space and focus for expanding on bigger things, like those outlined above.